Consider This Life

I want to erase everything that I am.

I want to smear it
all over these pages
until it's nothing,
not even a blur on
the outskirts of my memory.
Thu Feb 26

VI

Today was eventful.

Well, not full of events, but the one event that did happen was cool.

I gave blood for the first time. (Technically, at 106, I don’t weigh enough, but I fudged and said 112.) An experience, for sure. I managed to keep myself totally calm at the beginning. My iron was high, especially for a female. The questioning went good. I giggled without restraint when the iodine was being applied. I was told I have lovely veins.

But when the needle went in I cried. And couldn’t stop. I felt pretty ridiculous, especially since I had just been laughing. It didn’t hurt, really, after those first few seconds, but I couldn’t contain it.

It was rather embarassing, I suppose, since I was in front of all my peers, but I’m fine with it now. And I’m so proud of myself for having done it. Three lives saved!

And I only got a little light-headed, right after the needle was removed, and once I layed down flat I was fine.

I. Am. So. Proud.